Confessions of a newborn mom

 

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Hello baby girl,

You’re the pint sized tornado that hit me six months back and my world hasn’t stopped spinning since. Just between you and me, I have a confession to make. I didn’t prepare for us. I didn’t spend hours reading up on or researching the best way to mother you or raise you or mould you or any of the other millions of tips, advice or suggestions rampant both online and offline. I didn’t prepare because while all those people giving advice might have had a million babies and raised them a million wonderful ways, none of them have had you.

You, my darling, are a unique, incredible individual with a personality that defies any mould any one can come up with. Forget expert, I don’t claim to be even knowledgeable on the topic of baby rearing. What I am is learning. All-the-time. As I wade through dirty diapers, puked on clothes, sleepless nights and exhausting days, I get to know you a little bit more. Each day, each hour, each minute. And after each new dawn, I’m just that teeny bit less clueless, less lost. Only with regards to you. Hand me someone else’s baby and I’m as lost as ever.

I’m the mom who will forget to put clips in your hair so people know you’re a girl (It’s a real problem, I know) but I’ll remember to brush your hair….all three strands of it. Okay, okay you have five strands of hair. Let’s not get technical.

I’m the mom who’ll forget to pack your favourite toy when we go out but will sing rhymes nonstop for two hours to make up for it…in public…for someone who suffers from stage fright and whose singing voice is at best a tuneless croak the depths of my love knows no bounds. Must. Remember. The. Damn. Toy. Next. Time.

I’m the mom who’ll tell you stories of the intelligent, capable, totally kick ass princess who not only saved herself and the kingdom but also the hero by the end of the story. It matters not that you prefer to yawn in my face and play with your toes. I shall persist.

And while I’m that kind of mom, I won’t promise you that I’ll be the best mom you ever had (I’m the only mom you’ve got, love, and you’re kind of stuck with me) or a perfect got-it-together mom (At the moment, if I find similar slippers for both feet I consider that an accomplishment).

But I will promise you one thing. I promise to always listen to you…even if at the moment your favourite mode of communication involves shrieking in my ear. I’ll listen, pay attention and learn to do what’s best for you, for both of us and together…..together we’ll figure this crazy journey out. Because my baby, in a life littered with some insane highs and frightening lows, you are my most precious treasure and a masterpiece I have no hope of recreating in this lifetime or the next.

Love you always,
Your still pretty clueless mom

7 Comments

  1. Deepti Menon
    August 25, 2016 - 10:28 am · Reply

    Dear Shilpa,
    What an adorable letter to your precious six-month-old! It reminds me of my own post, the one that I had written on my four-month-year old granddaughter. You have written that you are a clueless mom, but there are so many things which no book or website can teach you, the most significant one being the desire to make your little one grow up as a happy and good human being. And you, my dear, will make sure of that, even if you do forget to put a clip on her hair or carry her favourite toy with you. All the best, my dear, and may your relationship with your little one light up your lives forever! God bless!

  2. Harini Balaji aka Deepa
    August 25, 2016 - 7:58 pm · Reply

    Hi Shilpa

    What an adorable and so true to heart and real words of expression . I am sure lil Zo who is so so beautiful will treasure these special words of truth filled with love as a lovely memoy . May the enjoyable growing years of lil Zo sparkle your lives together -her capturing eyes will rule the world for her -keep posting those gorgeous pics we love to see and cherish -love always ( Deepa ) Kanaka teachers daughter -please bring Zo to California we want to play with her and also want Ragini akka to visit

  3. Neha
    August 26, 2016 - 4:14 pm · Reply

    Beautiful post! Baby girl is lucky to have a mom like you :) do me a favor-write a collection of princess kick ass stories. I keep attempting at making up stories but am soo bad at it :( M now only asks for books to be read and no impromptu stories :D

  4. Inderpreet Kaur Uppal
    August 27, 2016 - 1:58 am · Reply

    Zo is lucky to have the best mom. You figured out the right mantra of bringing up a happy child. Patience and empathy is the only way have a happy child and fulfilling parenting.
    God bless you both.

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